Nothing to do.

I guess it is just a matter of time that i begin to have a life with more urgent challenges. These days i just want to go out and have simplicity and beauty in conversation, in longboarding and in music or just in sitting around at my home and having nothing to do or, to say it in another way, to be able to do what i want. So i say. Come on, life! what do you have to offer!? And of course life is not disappointing. And of course, it is some kind of challenge, to have nothing to do. So i collect all the things lying around and make them part of life. Maybe to have a little pushing, i got a new haircut today, i guess i like it.
i hope my english does not sound embarrassing. i want to keep my contact high to this language, it appears the most real one to me, probably because of media in english and because it is both, european and american culture as well, and it is the language of science.
What media told me today was about a guy who fired at his school mates, hurt them seriously and who was then shot down by the police. a deep scar for everyone of the people involved, probably no dead victims, just physical and psychological wounds. Maybe a great loss of belief in goodness of life. Another thing was about a 28 year old turkish man, who grew up as a strongly believing religious man in the same german city and became a suicide bomber, killing soldier's and civilians in Afghanistan. A video of this Al Quaida hero can be seen at www.spiegel.de. terrorism... I recently saw the film "Der Baader-Meinhof-Komplex", people being taught how to be an terrorist and thinking about how to damage structures of a political system, how to change things with violence. An important story of history. Politics do now mean nothing to society than they did in these times, or maybe, if not, people do not find the things that ought to be fought for, at least against Vorratsdatenspeicherung and Studiengebühren we do, and that's a good thing. It is beautiful that ideologies are almost gone, with the hard ones, fascism, socialism and communism being so far away in time and space from us, with peace and love and hippie-culture being inappropiate to modern times, with capitalism failing, we now trust in a green and clean future, when we will be riding electric cars and using energy produced by huge solar power stations in the desert.
But i love to see when different people come together. I want love and understanding between all of our world's cultures. Nothing else. and freedom for everyone, it is the most important meaning of security in my life.