adaptability - flexibility

Adaptability is considered to be the ability, that has since ever been human's most inevitable one for survival and consequently, in a way, the groundstone for evolution. What that meant was to choose an alternative way of living when neccessary. Transferring to present, it is pretty much equivalent to the modern value of flexibility. Flexibility, within the system, means the ability of living and working in other places when necessary. It is a prominent demand requested by employers and often gratefully met by the young, by the ambitious. So obviously human's modern flexibility and human's classical adaptability are closely related. Both values have proven their potential for success.

The difference is: adaptablility is demanded, once livelihood tends to vanish, and flexibility is demanded, for the increase of your livelihood.

From my point of view, most young women and men follow a plan A, try to cope with society, the system, for sure, considering other options, out of necessity. However when coming to the point where plan A does not work or does not show progress any more - how much flexibility are we able to give? When do you give up plan A? - a crucial point. We don't change running systems, but what we do when they crash, do we really know? - that's when adaptability is demanded.

The basics in peace-making - even if

Despite the recent and ever-present conflict between Israel and Palestine, I do not surrend to believe in the potential of humanity, I even dare to define the basics in peace-making, in this case, as abstract as neccessary:

To the Israelis:

- accept the Palestinians' right of having ground to live and of having a national state
- understand and accept Hamas' violence against Israel as a reaction to their fear of losing their ground to live and national state
- understand and accept that there is a difference between Palestinian people and Hamas
- discover your fear of losing your ground to live and national state
- learn to love Palestinians, even learn to love Hamas - learn to love your enemies, even if they act violent against you

To the Palestinians:

- accept the Israelis' right of having ground to live and of having a national state
- understand and accept Israel's violence against Palestinian territory as a reaction to their fear of losing their ground to live and national state
- understand and accept that there is a difference between the people of Israel and Israel as a state
- discover your fear of losing your ground to live and national state
- learn to love Israelis, even learn to love Israel's soldiers - learn to love your enemies, even if they act violent against you

To both, Israelis and Palestinians:
- no value is more precious than peace
- love each other
- discuss the borders



As I suggest this as quasi-non-negotiable points, I conclude that this conflict will not come to an end, unless in both parties majorities of "fear-overcoming and love-living" people form. It sounds as if I was dreaming, however, this would just be my interpretation of an agreement on peaceful neighbourhood.

Responsibility

Within the social contract, as defined in Thomas Hobbes' Leviathan, a responsibility is implied - that of signing the social contract. With the origin of that being the necessity of a solution to civil war-like situations, we can, within peaceful Europe, already question its justification. Our nowadays social contract is the frame of economics or social pressure systems, we're born into. For sure, there have been and still are frames of pressure, much worse than ours, but still I tend to not wanting to live within mine - so, is this the well-known praise of liberation from the whatever system, of freedom? No, it shall rather be the curse on, sorry, no, the discussion of our pressure systems. One vigorously present argument or motivation to commit to our system is, previously and in RESET mentioned, responsibility. Responsibility is incorporated in our economic system, primarily as people agree to look for a job and to then pay taxes. In our social capitalism, with people earning less money paying less taxes and vice versa, inequalities in income are ought to be balanced by inequalities in tax rates. Looking at the past century, social capitalism has been successfull, for sure due to both, the socialistic and capitalistic components, in the sense that economics, technology, for sure also individual freedom and social security, and lot's of things have flourished - so I do not say, that basic objectives were negelected - but I want to doubt whether our problem-solving and economic systems are still applicable to our present constitution.

However, responsibility is also a basic human ability, allowing for non-egoistic behaviour and for standing up straight for misbehaviour, eventually something purely good? But still, within our system, I would like to question whether our felt, social responsility is nothing but another exploit of ourself as a human ressource.

An insult

For sure, don't take the system personal, it is equally bad and good against anyone. However, why wouldn't I just insult the system, if I'd feel like it? When I would say, fuck the system!, fuck you system hard!, first, it wouldn't matter, as it is not a kind of critique, which would eventually matter, second, it wouldn't offend anyone, as the system is impersonal? Oh, wait, no, it would, it would hurt some peoples' feelings, making them feel offended, as they identify with the system, defend it.

That reminds me of and turns out to be a similar thing to: "Can there be something good within something bad?". Can I be happy here?, yes, when being allowed to insult the system, when given the right of free speech, but can I live here?, eventually not, if I couldn't avoid the system's pressure systems. I am convinced that there are areas whithin the system, where people either are able to live free from pressure, as they have been good enough to get out on islands, however I am also worried, whether I would like to live there, imagining all the money, status and power they had to acquire to get there. So, I suggest to rather slip down into the center of the pressure system, where you may be nothing, and just live in that stable place of time and space. And then, insulting the system would be the least I would like to do, wouldn't feel offended nor pressured. That place would be the streets or the woods, nice places!


So, do I declare everything bad? If I do so, was it because I have reached or learnt something? Or, because I am frustrated, seeking my pleasure in cursing, making an abstract system responsible for my bad? That would be bad and I fear to be like that. But, I won't believe that and there is nothing like my bad or my failure, for sure not. I have just had a three sets to love defeat against scientific institutions, obviously no, it was a defeat against many more people who are just like me.

RESET

We are some sort of nothing, what ever we do, we will ever be a good or a not so good nothing, that is for sure. Being nothing or two, we would break out, into nothingness, as we couldn't stand the lives of our fathers and mothers, the life we've aimed at, the life we've been said to live, any more. Eventually, some day will come, we try and commit and would already have accomplished everything. For how long?, it would not matter. Reality is that there is an ever peaking world, we just climb up the ladder, not considering the coziness of the flat ground, not worshipping the greatest good of all, time. By restricting ourselves to the well-known modern life, which is based upon the values of bearing society's dogma of success and of the allowing of any pressure on ourselves, I fear, we all will be just like our fathers and mothers, eventually worse, falling short of any societal evolution. With respect to mankind, the only real progress would be regress and sustainability. Don't make economy grow, make plants grow. Don't make yourself a mightier, more important human being, make yourself a good nothing. Since ever, mankind has made up and ever-slowly blown up a gigantic bubble of problems, which every child feels responsible for, which we all want to work against, which, however, will not stop getting bigger, until we get less, so, in that kind of sense, more nothing. Anyway, I ask you to consider that, for being able to work against any ecological or societal problem, you have got to sell the solution, for money, the basis of our lives, or, more realistically, you have got be part of the group of people selling the solution. Equivalently bad is the risk we take, when having the purest intentions, those of making the world a better place, and when trying to achieve something by committing to society's principles, as we realize, when failing, that we are nothing, and then, we're so disappointed, we need therapy, which we've eventually already needed while committing to.... I have come far from where I started some lines above, but let me finish by asking: How many lives do we want to make better within our life in commitment to society, when simultaneously risking our own and making every other living slowly worse, by blowing up the bubble of problems?

How come I come up with that Aussteiger stuff?
Eventually as I feel like failing to stand my ground within that society?
Eventually because I feel like society did not allow me for a seat in ICE?
Eventually as I'm now 27 years of age?

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friendship and downhill longboarding in la, a trip in company of a guy, who is riding and smiling perfectly. a relaxing time and good work in my homey library, together with guys that make me stay awake til late at night. watching movies, breathing insideout, turning around, staying awake and being. Applying for and thinking and daydreaming about studies in spain, i would love to go there. I went home and chose a party, was consuming media in unknown sizes. Then zeitkompetenztraining, I was feeling so alright, though falling roughly into ground, pain was being switched off immediately, so thinking about how to spend time productively for some time, being discussed about my punctuality quite personally, and fearing things might work or not. I'm gonna go to a theatre in a lonely town, I was a helping hand for the stage of the play. Nice company chosen.